I Think I'm Happy

I think I'm happy today,

This journey has been a tiring one,

The view of closeted fears,

The other that's unyielding and grey,

I wonder how I should live,

In this ideal or something else,

Not sure of divine and physical markers,

So I'm stuck here but I have a plan,

It will take me further,

But longer than necesary,

I have choice to exercise this freedom,

Looking up and forward,

But languishing in indecision.